Time check, 4:15pm

Nothing much this few days. Just the same old routine. Work, home, sleep. Somebody please ask me out, thankyou. I'm dying here. 

Here's what I'm thinking this few days. I don't fucking know. Sometimes I just wana ask myself if there's anything about me tht somebody will fall in love with. Well hell, if it's me, I would prolly never fall for someone like me though. 

I wish someone knows me better thn I know myself, so I prolly won't get in trouble with other stuffs, or I won't prolly won't make any wrong moves. I keep struggling inside me, with me. I don't know what to do, I don't know what to think. I find myself too dumb, really too dumb. Why? Don't ask me, I myself don't even have any idea why. Tht's why I said, I wish there's someone tht knows me way better thn I know myself. 

Sometimes, not everything can be decided on your own, you've gotta think of those people around tht'll be pulled in. Not everything can be simple. It's not like this at all. One wrong decision, causes everything to come tumbling down. What else can I say? I made the wrong move. I was just too dumb last time. 

I learned not to rush love. I learned to go through everything slowly. I learned to keep my feelings in. I learned so much so much. 

I'm not courageous enough, not enough to say 'i love you' to someone else. Not enough to express my feelings out. Not enough to love someone. I'm afraid, I'm insecure about everything, I'm sensitive, I'm bad tempered, I'm not those girls tht always know everything to make you happy. I'd always have ways to help others, but when it comes to me, I always lock myself up and just run away from everything, it's just me. How useless I am. 

No matter how strong I am, beside you, I always feel small and fragile... I always don't know what I am, and what the hell I'm doing. I fall too deep, I kept my hopes too high. But one thing I know for sure, I'll be there whenever you need me to.

I'll keep this heart safe, just for you.

Good things don't come easy. Neither will you.

If I could turn back time, I'll go wherever you go. Promise.